I suck....

...at posting! Life is (as always) busy, and I really let the blog get away from me!!!! I am getting ridiculously busy with school (its my next to last semester so its a bit crazy!) and have been working. However...the best part of life. 4 more months of this stupid, no good, very bad deployment :)

wordless wednesday

Progression...

I am pretty emotional today--for a lot of reasons--just wasn't the day I had hoped for today and that set me off into a breakdown...I take comfort in looking at pictures of my family..so here is a little progression from the last 8 months of my life!!!

Return from abscense!

WOW! It has been forever since I blogged!!! I sooooo apologize! Life got a bit out of hand the past few weeks and I could barely squeeze in sleep let alone blogging! School has been taking up so much of my life--between clinicals and a community health day and just class and studying...I feel like I hardly have time for anything else! However I have been working overnights and just am ZONKED the next day!

On the other hand--I have been working out consistently now! I didn't take measurements before I started, but I can feel a difference in how my pants fit!! YAY!! I have a goal in mind- and I am determined to reach it!!

I have some pictures to update but I am not on my computer, so I will try and get them up tomorrow! sorry for being gone so long!

Trying to beat the blues...

The week following Jeff's departure was...rough. I couldn't get motivated to save my life-so needless to say, I didn't accomplish most of my list. Its definitely a hard feeling to be with the spouse and feel normal, and then to have that ripped away again. I am slowly getting back into the routine but I still am not quite there. I sadly didn't make it to the gym last week, and was all prepared to make it there this week, but this darn crazy winter storm screwed up those plans!! The Y is closed :(

Well, sorry for my lack of posting--I worked the night shift recently, so my schedule is all messed up..will blog again soon!!

To Do

Its going to be a long couple weeks!

-turn in my gym membership papers
-attend a cloth diapering information class
-work on the secret project for Jeff's care package
-study for the test I have
-go back to work after 3 awesome weeks off
-GO to the gym
-find a little "me" time.

The hardest part about the spouse leaving is trying to get back into your routine. Don't get me wrong, I totally loved having my routine thrown off for two weeks-especially since it was because Jeff was home. But now, witht he baby, and trying to get him back on the semi schedule we have him on--its been a bit of a nightmare. I FINALLY got him to nap today-after much resistence on his end.

I also haven't puch much effort into this semester for the two weeks (almost 3) that the semester has been going. Granted, we have only had class twice (and I skipped once-the day of my birthday), but now, I really really REALLY need to kick it into high gear and GET GOING! Its been difficult to get motivated, because everything is so disorganized so far, and I have a hard time functioning when the teacher can't be clear or specific about when she needs things done, or even WHAT she needs done! UGH!

Together....

...is a wonderful place to be :)

Being Normal..

Its amazing how after 6 months of deployment you forget how NORMAL life can feel. I honestly have gotten so used to doing EVERYTHING on my own- school, work, being a momma, managing the bank account...that its actually been WEIRD having a back up this past week.

But, I'm not complaining :)

Tonight we get family pictures taken, so you betcha they will be posted after Jeff leaves!

SURPRISE!!!!

This cute guy surprised me for his 2 week leave!!!!!
Here are just a few of the reason this rocks so much :) Emphasis on just a FEW!

1. I missed his face like crazy
2. He got to hold his son for the first time in 5 months!
3. My birthday falls during his leave
4. My heart feels whole again <3
5. He called my manager ahead of time and got me out of all my shifts for the next couple weeks!

I am so crazy excited to have this guy home for the little bit that I have!! I wont be wasting a moment of it!!

Because I don't want to waste a moment of it, there are a few scheduled posts headed your way for the next couple days to tide you over :)

Just having a little smoothie for a snack...

Jeff, I promise, I am watching over the baby, even though he pulls my hair, bites my tail and chases me around the room. Love, Marbles.

End of Winter Break..

Well, school starts back up a week from today and I am less than thrilled about that. Especially since our reading list that MUST be done by the first night of class has been posted and its less than desirable. Its actually pretty long. WHO DOES THAT??? I am not looking forward to this semester because the instructors have promised us that it will be extremely difficult and also because I am going to m iss how break was. During this break I was able to devote all my time and attention to Sqworms. It was the best. I truely enjoyed spending every moment of every day together. It was so carefree and relaxed and I loved not having to make the time for school work around our time together. I can honestly say that the only reason I am going back this semester is because I know in the long run it will be better for my family...

Going "Au Naturale"

....See this gem of a book?....

YUP! I got it for Christmas!!! It has some pretty sweet recipes for introducing different flavors, spices, and herbs into the babies diet! The book is broken into age categories so it gives you a guideline as to what is appropriate for the different ages! I love it! I asked my DR about some of the recipes, just to see what her input was, and she said it is totally on par so I am getting ready to gear up and make some delicious yum yums for Sqworms!! He has no idea what is headed his way :)

Cloth Diapering..

Well, I took the plunge! I decided a few weeks ago that I WANT to cloth diaper, so I ordered some...

Today, when the doorbell rang and the mailman was standing there with a package...I GOT SO EXCITED!!! I just KNEW this was the package with my cloth diapers! And It was....but sadly, it was filled with the WRONG diapers/prints :(

I do not think Sqworms wants to roll in pink and purple diapers :( So, I have to wait to get my new ones sent to me!!! AAHHHH!!! The anticipation!!

The Infamous New Years Resolutions...

Well, its that time of the year...time to make your Resolutions!!! Well...here are mine!

I want to lose 20 lbs. (Yes, I have one standard resolution--but I swear, the rest are better)
I want to be diligent about cloth diapering
I want to throw the BEST 1st B-day Party for Sqworms
I want to be a wonderful, understanding, and loving wife to my husband when he returns home

Here is to 2011 being the BEST year ever!!

Wordless Wednesday

Exhaustion...

I am physically, emotionally and mentally...TIRED.

There is no way around it.

Day 1

Well, I started it! I did my first work out of Jillian's famous 30 Day Shred! I feel so good about myself for finally pulling my butt of the couch and starting towards my weight loss goal!! WOO!

Christmas Spirit...

It is my little man's first Christmas... I am looking forward to it! However, I have had some difficulty getting tooooo excited, because a key member of our family is going to be missing! Jeff and I haven't missed a Christmas together since we started dating in highschool, so this is especially hard to not have him around during the holiday season. It hurts to see people's facebook updates about putting up the tree together as a family, about Christmas shopping together. It just makes me sad, because at this point, I would give my right arm to have these things!

For those of you with little ones and deployed spouses--how do you deal?

In other news, I had a complete breakdown in the DOT yesterday. I had to renew my driver's license, and I was waiting for the paper copy they print for you until your license comes in the mail. Sqworms started to get a little fussy (he was getting hungry and warm), but he hadn't hit full blown cry yet, it was more a fussy whine..well, some middle aged woman looks at me and says, "Get your kid under control. And if you can't do that, then maybe you shouldn't take him places with you."....Wow, I was so angry...I burst into tears and looked at her and said "I am doing the best I can! And as for taking him places, his DAD is DEPLOYED so I have no other options!" Then I walked out.

Sometimes, people just don't think before opening their mouths. They never stop to think of what other people are going through and that maybe they ARE trying the best they can to make it through this crazy life with the resources available to them. It really gets me thinking and I truly try to put myself in others shoes before judging.

*Sigh*.

I saw a good quote today
"I am quite relieved when I let God take control, trying to control everything myself is exhausting!"

HOW TRUE!

Thanksgiving Break...

I am so thankful for the opportunities I have had this Thanksgiving Break. I have been lucky enough to spend 4 evenings skyping with Jeff who is overseas. We were so blessed to be able to skype during Sqworms first trial with rice cereal. I was so happy that Jeff was able to share in that experience with us.

Sqworms got ahold of an oreo cookie that Pappy had in his hand, he latche.d down and enjoyed the chocolate taste...He gets that craving for chocolate from his momma!!
We have been in New York for the last week and have really enjoyed doing some sight seeing. It has definitely been nice not worrying about school or work!!

....

Today is just one of those days where I just am sad :(

I miss Jeff a lot!

In otherwords, I am off to see my sister in law for the week..in NEW YORK! YAY!