It is my little man's first Christmas... I am looking forward to it! However, I have had some difficulty getting tooooo excited, because a key member of our family is going to be missing! Jeff and I haven't missed a Christmas together since we started dating in highschool, so this is especially hard to not have him around during the holiday season. It hurts to see people's facebook updates about putting up the tree together as a family, about Christmas shopping together. It just makes me sad, because at this point, I would give my right arm to have these things!
For those of you with little ones and deployed spouses--how do you deal?
In other news, I had a complete breakdown in the DOT yesterday. I had to renew my driver's license, and I was waiting for the paper copy they print for you until your license comes in the mail. Sqworms started to get a little fussy (he was getting hungry and warm), but he hadn't hit full blown cry yet, it was more a fussy whine..well, some middle aged woman looks at me and says, "Get your kid under control. And if you can't do that, then maybe you shouldn't take him places with you."....Wow, I was so angry...I burst into tears and looked at her and said "I am doing the best I can! And as for taking him places, his DAD is DEPLOYED so I have no other options!" Then I walked out.
Sometimes, people just don't think before opening their mouths. They never stop to think of what other people are going through and that maybe they ARE trying the best they can to make it through this crazy life with the resources available to them. It really gets me thinking and I truly try to put myself in others shoes before judging.
I saw a good quote today
"I am quite relieved when I let God take control, trying to control everything myself is exhausting!"