Where to Start?

Life sure does throw curve balls. I'll start with the good :) I got to see Jeff for 5 wonderful days last week. It couldn't have come at a better time (you will learn as you read on). I have missed him so much, and it was wonderful to be with him. I smiled like I haven't smiled in a long time. Having him hold me in his arms was perfect. I just wish that we could have been together as a whole family (with Sqworms). That would have made everything wonderful, but in a few months we will get the opportunity to be together as a family.


We spent our time in FL and it was wonderful! We only played on the beach one day because it rained the rest of the time, but that didn't matter to me. I loved our time on the beach as much as I loved the day we spent snuggled up on the couch watching Myth Busters and NCIS on tv. I couldn't have asked for ANYTHING but being with my husband. This trip was much needed, but the wednesday before I was to leave, it became even more in need. My grandma was rushed to the hospital with very, very low blood pressure. They put her on medications to sustain her until my Aunt from California could arrive the next night. I spent the next 4 days at the hospital by my Grandma's bedside. Then I left and spent the next five days with Jeff, being comforted during this time of sorrow. When I got back Friday, I spent a few hours at the hospital (unable to stay long because my grandma was very near the end and it was to hard to see her like that). That night I got the call saying that my Grandma had gone to be with Heavenly Father and my Grandpa.

My grandma was the most wonderful woman in my life. My father was a single parent for most of my life, and my Grams was the one who helped raise me. She was the kindest woman I know, and I have millions of fond memories of her. Thats the woman I want to remember; the strong, confident, beautiful, kind and loving woman in my life who was more of a mother to me than the woman who birthed me. She is going to be greatly missed and I love her more than words can ever explain. Audrey Jane was a woman who left an imprint on many lives, especially mine.

*I love you Grams*