*Funk*

BLAH. Sorry for the lack of updates, I am currently without internet... :(

The last couple weeks have been pretty rough...but this weekend was the worst.
My one year anniversary was Sunday. And Jeff had been told he could call me, even though his unit is currently on "no communication" because of training...So, even though we couldn't be together, I was looking forward to my call...

Guess what. Sunday came and went without a phone call.
Needless to say, I cried myself to sleep that night.

And I have been in quite the funk ever since..

Hopefully things will turn around.

Will try and blog more later..

Uh Oh...

I made a big mistake tonight. And its entirely my fault.

Jeff and I got into an arguement..because I'm completely stressed, emotional and tired.
I feel like a big pile of steaming poop about it too :(

I'm still working on how to mask my stress when he and I get to talk, or even in general...but when the pills start piling up on the desk, and school turns my life into chaos, and the fact that I just started working again begins to stress me out...I haven't quite determined how to deal with it. You would think that I should be good at this by now, since I've spent nearly this entire year alone..but it is still hard. It doesn't get easier.

When the days are sucky, sometimes all I need is a big hug from the one person who can make it all better...but it just so happens, that person is Jeff. and I will be waiting for that hug for a while.

I don't mean to have a downer post like this, I had all kinds of good posts planned...but I'm just really feeling crappy tonight. I hate that he and I got in a fight, I hate that it happened while the baby was screaming, which added to the tension, I hate that I'm as stressed out as I am..

I know that one of the reasons I'm as stressed as I am, is because school literally consumes my life this week with training I have to accomplish the next two days before I can do clinicals at the University hospital here...pointless computer training, which takes up two whole days of my life that i NEED to spend doing more important things.. UGH

All I want is a big bowl of ice cream to make me feel better, but i'm trying to lose the baby weight (plus extra)..and that isn't going well either...which stresses me out more. UGH

Well, I should just call it a night since I have to have Sqworms to the sitter by 7:30 am...means I won't be getting much sleep tonight :(...

I promise I'll have more upbeat posts for the rest of the week...

yup!

Today we remember to live and to love.

Weakness...

So I have a big weakness.

Target.

Today I went in there on a mission. Hangers and Canning Jars. Plain and simple.

I left with baby clothes, new winter boots, hangers, canning jars and some other essential organizational items...

I CAN NOT just walk into that store and get the "few" things in my list. I always end up walking out with more than what I needed... Target is like my drug..man..I have to learn to stay away from there!

What are some of your weaknesses?

You. Have. Got. To. Be. Kidding. Me.

So, I got used to the fact that my "romantic date" on my 1 year anniversary, was going to be over the phone. I was ok with that. I had come to terms with it.

Then.

Tonight I was informed that I'll be pretty damn lucky if I even GET a phone call.

SERIOUSLY!?!?!?

URRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH.
The soldiers won't have their phones while they are at their next destination for training and there is a SMALL chance he will be able to use a calling card and call me for a few minutes...

I am not pleased.

How I Make It Through the Days!

Nerd-ville

I love learning.
Call me a nerd.

My clinical rotations this semester are at our University Hospital and they seem like they are going to ROCK!!!!

My first rotation is on an organ transplant/bariatric (heavier people) unit! CAN WE SAY AWESOME-NESS!?!?!

My 2nd rotation is on an oncology (cancer) unit.

I am unbelievably, super duper EXCITED!!!