Well, sorry it has been so long since I blogged...Hopefully you all aren't losing interest in my blog..I promise to do better! There just isn't much new here these days right now...in about 3 weeks that will change..
Little mister is growing like a weed- I can't believe that on Friday he will be 1 month old already! that just blows my mind!! Its amazing how much you adapt and life changes when you become a mom. I now do a lot more things one handed since little mister is a snuggler. Even taking a trip to the grocery store is a new experience...everything is different, but not in a bad way. He is starting to "coo" quite a bit now, and I just love it. He is so curious and is always bright eyed and looking around, taking in everything he sees. I think he's going to be an adventurous boy when he's older....
Otherwise not much is new, just working towards the end of the semester...I take my final the day after Jeff leaves...talk about emotional stress overload! This semester has been especially hard for many reasons. 1) its summer and they always move QUICKLY! 2) I had a baby in the middle of the semester 3) The material is way more challenging 4) the staff hasn't been the best 5) I'm not emotionally 100% like I should be!
I'm still working on coming to terms with how I'm going to do all this while Jeff is gone, but he has reassured me multiple times it will all be ok..He is just so sweet <3
I guess the only other remotely new thing is that I have everything all set, and I go back to work right after Labor Day..That gives me and the little one about 4 weeks to get settled and adjust to not having Jeff around before I add even more to our lives and head back to work! I definitely miss my co-workers, but I remember how stressful work can get..and I don't miss that part! But it will be another thing to keep me busy and distracted while my honey is gone!!
Love,
Jen
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Day 4- Favorite Book
I thought I would start with a cute picture :)My favorite book...well, I happen to love Harry Potter books. All of them! But my favorite is Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Yup :)
I also want to say HELLO HELLO to my newest followers :) I'm so glad to have some of the fellow army wives on here for support!
Monday, July 12, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Struggling
One Month.
Thats all the time left until Jeff leaves for his deployment. And its consuming me. All I can think about is how I want to spend every second of every day with him, but thats impossible when he is working 6:30-5 Tuesday through Friday, and I am spending my weekends at clinicals from 7-3:30. I feel like I'm wasting all this time that I should be spending with him and with Cain.
Its been really hard for me to handle actually. I sit and think about all the hours in the next month that I'm spending away from my husband. And then I try and take the positive spin and think about how worth it all of this will be a year from now. A Year from now when Jeff will be home from deployment, I will be done with nursing school, and our life can finally "begin".
But in the meantime, I'm consumed with trying to wrap my brain around "How am I going to do this!?" I am not 100% dependent on Jeff, but I do rely on him a lot. Simple things that he takes care of around the house make all the difference, and when he walks in the door and smiles at me, or hugs me, or when we are holding hands and he'll just squeeze my hand for no reason at all...I rely on those things. And I won't get those things while he is gone. And I don't know how I'll manage without them. For crying out loud, I could barely handle the 17 weeks he was away for BCT and AIT...but 52 weeks?! Seriously? I may just lose my sanity.
I suppose I'll probably spend more of my time writing down my feelings, documenting this experience. I'll write him everyday, and sleep with my phone by my head again, on the loudest ring possible. I finally just got used to putting my phone away at night, because he is here, and now I will have to go back to that constant state of anxiety and paranoia about missing any message or phone call from him. *sigh* oh the life of an army wife.
I know, that at the end of this year, I will be a much stronger person, and my relationships strength will have increased immensely, but knowing that doesn't always make the struggles easier. I also know that Heavenly Father wouldn't deal me more than I can handle, so I just need to continue to put my faith in knowing that I CAN DO THIS--or else He wouldn't have dealt me this experience.
"Sometimes you have to be away from the people you love. This doesnt make you love them less, sometimes it makes you love them more"
Thats all the time left until Jeff leaves for his deployment. And its consuming me. All I can think about is how I want to spend every second of every day with him, but thats impossible when he is working 6:30-5 Tuesday through Friday, and I am spending my weekends at clinicals from 7-3:30. I feel like I'm wasting all this time that I should be spending with him and with Cain.
Its been really hard for me to handle actually. I sit and think about all the hours in the next month that I'm spending away from my husband. And then I try and take the positive spin and think about how worth it all of this will be a year from now. A Year from now when Jeff will be home from deployment, I will be done with nursing school, and our life can finally "begin".
But in the meantime, I'm consumed with trying to wrap my brain around "How am I going to do this!?" I am not 100% dependent on Jeff, but I do rely on him a lot. Simple things that he takes care of around the house make all the difference, and when he walks in the door and smiles at me, or hugs me, or when we are holding hands and he'll just squeeze my hand for no reason at all...I rely on those things. And I won't get those things while he is gone. And I don't know how I'll manage without them. For crying out loud, I could barely handle the 17 weeks he was away for BCT and AIT...but 52 weeks?! Seriously? I may just lose my sanity.
I suppose I'll probably spend more of my time writing down my feelings, documenting this experience. I'll write him everyday, and sleep with my phone by my head again, on the loudest ring possible. I finally just got used to putting my phone away at night, because he is here, and now I will have to go back to that constant state of anxiety and paranoia about missing any message or phone call from him. *sigh* oh the life of an army wife.
I know, that at the end of this year, I will be a much stronger person, and my relationships strength will have increased immensely, but knowing that doesn't always make the struggles easier. I also know that Heavenly Father wouldn't deal me more than I can handle, so I just need to continue to put my faith in knowing that I CAN DO THIS--or else He wouldn't have dealt me this experience.
"Sometimes you have to be away from the people you love. This doesnt make you love them less, sometimes it makes you love them more"
Friday, July 2, 2010
Making my Return!
AH! I have seriously slacked in the blogging world!!! I have so many blogs to catch up and read! I have missed you all! AND HELLO HELLO to my new followers :)
Where should I start?! Motherhood...wonderful! My precious little man is just so wonderful! I can't even describe it :) I'm very grateful for this little blessing in my life. And I have truely enjoyed watching Jeff interact with his son..I can tell you, there is no greater feeling than sitting on the couch next to Jeff admiring our son :) I'm going to really miss that while Jeff is deployed :/
Between diaper changes, feedings, burpings and being a "housewife" I'm still working hard at my nursing classes! I went to clinicals less than 72 hours after delivering! WHOA! Talk about pure exhaustion at the end of that weekend...I've been tired before, but that was a WHOLE NEW LEVEL!!! I'm really enjoying what I'm learning right now (coincidently its been the unit about care of a pregnant woman and newborn!) and I love learning new skills at the hospital each weekend for clinicals!
This weekend we are off to St Louis to see all the family and have little man's baby blessing!! Hoping its a smooth weekend and that everybody can get along!
Well, life calls! Back to my duties!
*Jen
Where should I start?! Motherhood...wonderful! My precious little man is just so wonderful! I can't even describe it :) I'm very grateful for this little blessing in my life. And I have truely enjoyed watching Jeff interact with his son..I can tell you, there is no greater feeling than sitting on the couch next to Jeff admiring our son :) I'm going to really miss that while Jeff is deployed :/
Between diaper changes, feedings, burpings and being a "housewife" I'm still working hard at my nursing classes! I went to clinicals less than 72 hours after delivering! WHOA! Talk about pure exhaustion at the end of that weekend...I've been tired before, but that was a WHOLE NEW LEVEL!!! I'm really enjoying what I'm learning right now (coincidently its been the unit about care of a pregnant woman and newborn!) and I love learning new skills at the hospital each weekend for clinicals!
This weekend we are off to St Louis to see all the family and have little man's baby blessing!! Hoping its a smooth weekend and that everybody can get along!
Well, life calls! Back to my duties!
*Jen
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Day 3, Disgruntled Nursing Student, Bird Business
Day 3: Favorite Television Program....I hate to admit this, but I LOVE LOVE LOVE all of the "Real Housewives" Shows...Orange County, Atlanta, New York, New Jersey. I love them all. I think that they make me feel better about my life. Plus its just a tv show I sit and watch and don't have to use my brain for at all (it might even be hurting my brain)...but either way, I love them :)
Alright, I need to vent. I mean, what is a blog for afterall, right!?
I am a nursing student. In my 2nd semester (I have 3 left after this one). I have about 20 kids in the class with me (3 boys, the rest are girls). Most of which work in the healthcare field already, and even if they don't, we have all done clinicals from last semester. We were in the nursing home. I need to start by saying...nursing--when you think of that, what comes to mind? The human body? Dealing with patients?
YES! THATS BECAUSE THATS WHAT WE DO! We deal with the human body...including their eyes, ears, heart, lungs, butt, and genitals, all the way down to their toes. However, you would think that some of the people in my class, didn't know that. They sit and giggle at pictures of the genitals. I just have to vent my frustration with this. GROW UP. We have all seen either a vagina or penis. We either have one, or we've seen them from being married, or from the patient care that we have done at clinicals or our jobs (for those of us who DO work in a health care setting). However, those people...even though they've all seen genitals before, they sit and giggle. REALLY? (the best part is that the class age ranges from 21-40ish...and its not just the young ones giggling).
Second frustration right now is that we just finished our Pregnancy/Labor and Delivery/Post Partum care unit. Since I am the girl who is pregnant in class, it was like I was the FREAK show in class. We watched a video about birth, and nearly every eye was on me instead of on the screen..simply waiting to see how I would react...well, I don't like all eyes on me, its hot outside and I'm 9 months pregnant, so I got all hot and sweaty and you could physically see the sweat on my brow, and of course people had to call attention to that. Yes, I know that delivering a child is going to be uncomfortable, but...so worth it. But thanks for pointing out all the parts that are going to suck- gosh I love my classmates.
Thirdly, the inappropriate comments that came along with the Labor and Delivery unit..There is a lot of touching and pushing that the dr has to do on female parts...and a guy in my class, (who thinks its ok to say this stuff because he is homosexual) asked me if he could massage my fundus (which involves putting a hand in your private parts and pushing on your abdomen from there and from the outside)....Excuse me, but I DONT APPRECIATE you talking to me like that, and when I ask you to not, please don't feel like you can call me a B*tch. Pretty positive if my husband knew you were saying things such as that to me, he'd be through the roof with anger.
Ok. Enough ranting about nursing school. I just can NOT believe the people in my class. There is so much more that I could go on about from individual events, but I'll spare you from having to read that.
In a kind of humorous story (At least it was to me while I was viewing it)...I have a screened in porch, and yesterday I noticed there was a bird in there, flying from panel to panel...I have NO CLUE where he got in...there might be a hole in the screen somewhere (it was a small bird)..so I opened the door hoping he would fly right out...NO!!! the crazy bird took like 2 hours to realize the door was open and he was FREE!!! Goofy thing!
Alright, off to enjoy my Friday! Happy Due Date to me!!!! No baby yet!
*Jen
Alright, I need to vent. I mean, what is a blog for afterall, right!?
I am a nursing student. In my 2nd semester (I have 3 left after this one). I have about 20 kids in the class with me (3 boys, the rest are girls). Most of which work in the healthcare field already, and even if they don't, we have all done clinicals from last semester. We were in the nursing home. I need to start by saying...nursing--when you think of that, what comes to mind? The human body? Dealing with patients?
YES! THATS BECAUSE THATS WHAT WE DO! We deal with the human body...including their eyes, ears, heart, lungs, butt, and genitals, all the way down to their toes. However, you would think that some of the people in my class, didn't know that. They sit and giggle at pictures of the genitals. I just have to vent my frustration with this. GROW UP. We have all seen either a vagina or penis. We either have one, or we've seen them from being married, or from the patient care that we have done at clinicals or our jobs (for those of us who DO work in a health care setting). However, those people...even though they've all seen genitals before, they sit and giggle. REALLY? (the best part is that the class age ranges from 21-40ish...and its not just the young ones giggling).
Second frustration right now is that we just finished our Pregnancy/Labor and Delivery/Post Partum care unit. Since I am the girl who is pregnant in class, it was like I was the FREAK show in class. We watched a video about birth, and nearly every eye was on me instead of on the screen..simply waiting to see how I would react...well, I don't like all eyes on me, its hot outside and I'm 9 months pregnant, so I got all hot and sweaty and you could physically see the sweat on my brow, and of course people had to call attention to that. Yes, I know that delivering a child is going to be uncomfortable, but...so worth it. But thanks for pointing out all the parts that are going to suck- gosh I love my classmates.
Thirdly, the inappropriate comments that came along with the Labor and Delivery unit..There is a lot of touching and pushing that the dr has to do on female parts...and a guy in my class, (who thinks its ok to say this stuff because he is homosexual) asked me if he could massage my fundus (which involves putting a hand in your private parts and pushing on your abdomen from there and from the outside)....Excuse me, but I DONT APPRECIATE you talking to me like that, and when I ask you to not, please don't feel like you can call me a B*tch. Pretty positive if my husband knew you were saying things such as that to me, he'd be through the roof with anger.
Ok. Enough ranting about nursing school. I just can NOT believe the people in my class. There is so much more that I could go on about from individual events, but I'll spare you from having to read that.
In a kind of humorous story (At least it was to me while I was viewing it)...I have a screened in porch, and yesterday I noticed there was a bird in there, flying from panel to panel...I have NO CLUE where he got in...there might be a hole in the screen somewhere (it was a small bird)..so I opened the door hoping he would fly right out...NO!!! the crazy bird took like 2 hours to realize the door was open and he was FREE!!! Goofy thing!
Alright, off to enjoy my Friday! Happy Due Date to me!!!! No baby yet!
*Jen
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